Parting Thoughts

Here we are. We have arrived at the present day. On this present day, I have decided to end this blog. It was a tough decision, but I think it's for the best.

I’ve had my fair share of fun, especially as a college student. But after all those hookups, I’m just tired. I’m tired of all the confusion, and I’m tired of being used for sex. I’m tired of being mistreated, especially when it’s for something that doesn’t even matter.

Plus, I am an independent person by nature. I enjoy being self-sufficient in every way possible. This is why, more than anything, I hate obsessing about the possibility of being with a guy. It’s pure torture, not knowing if it will work out or not. And yet, I can’t help but think about it all the time, even though I know how much it sucks to keep thinking about it.

Don't get me wrong, it would be nice to fall in love. However, I’m now ready to wait for the right person. The person whose personality clicks with mine, and with whom I have a Sexual Pull of Attraction that is off the charts.

I will actually matter to this person, just like I mattered to James. This person will inspire and encourage me to be my best, like T.J. did. He will love and trust me like Elton did. He will understand me just as well as Chris did. He will be smart, funny, interesting, considerate, and confident. This person will also be quite similar to me. I will not settle for anyone who is not just as awesome as me, and right now, there is nobody that I like better than myself.

Some parting tips:

1. Communication is key. The most important thing that I've learned from blogging is that the majority of the confusion in my experiences was due to a lack of communication. Sometimes the guy failed at communicating, sometimes I failed at communicating, and sometimes we both failed at it. No matter who was at fault, bad communication was the major culprit behind all those "boys are stupid and suck" moments.
2. When you find the right person-- or even when you really, intensely like the wrong person-- you just don't care about stuff. All that dumbass shit that James did at the end of our relationship? If I had been really into him, I probably wouldn't have cared.
3. For all my girls out there: work on being more obvious. Guys just don't understand hints. Or subtlety. They don't understand what you're trying to do unless you are completely, blatantly obvious. This might be scary, but you will get results one way or another.
4. There is no way to "mess up." If it is meant to happen, it will happen, regardless of what you do (or do not do). (Within reason. Whatever you do, don't be like my friend Mandy. She wants guys that she hasn't even talked to before to ask her out, without her doing a single damned thing to try to get to know them at all).
5. College is the worst place to date around (at least that is the case for my school). Guys are just trying to get experience in the sack, and are not looking for anything serious. (Unless they are still in their LTR from high school. And even then, they still want to fuck you).
6. The way a guy treats you when he is in a relationship is the same as the way he will treat you when he is out of it. "Just friends?" Still only "just friends." Wants to have sex? Still only wants to have sex. Nothing changes except his relationship status. If he were really that into you, he would break up with her to be with you.
7. Making the first move is not a good idea. If a guy is really into you, he will make the first move, even if he is shy.

And that is it for now. Don't worry-- Veronica won't disappear. My smoking, dirty-mouthed, lipstick-wearing, wild, sensual alter-ego will never be truly gone. She will always be there for me when I need her. In fact, I plan to incorporate more Veronica-ness into my daily life, as I work on being more obvious to the guys that I like.

Finally, I would like to thank you, my readers. It has been a great two months, and I hope you have enjoyed reading as much as I've enjoyed writing. And who knows, maybe I will start a sister-blog at some point.